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142 utterances · click to jump
00:27
S0
The following is an introduction to a recent illusion conclusion course.
00:33
S1
About eight months ago, something like that, I I took the kids bowling,
00:41
S1
and they had never been bowling before. And I didn't know that they put inflatable things in the gutters for kids. You ever seen that? They put the inflatable things in the gutter so the kids can't roll a gutter ball. There were times when it would take thirty five, forty, even fifty seconds for Judson's ball to roll down to the pits, and still it couldn't go in the gutter. And it's just he'd roll his ball, and he'd come back and talk to us for a while. And then he'd look, and it'd be halfway down.
01:23
S1
The idea that you ever could roll a gutter ball is ridiculous. And my suspicion is that some of you have conversations that you have,
01:34
S1
And you probably even scored it that way, not noticing who was keeping score. So bowling is fairly simple.
01:47
S1
Someone sets up the pins and then you knock them down.
01:55
S1
And then the pins get set up again and then you knock them down.
02:01
S1
And the more of them you knock down, the more of them you move from order to chaos, the more points you get.
02:11
S1
And you always kind of know where you stand And it's movement from setup to upset to set up to upset to set up to upset always with your eye on the future to find out where you stand. It sounds almost metaphorical
02:39
S1
because you are,
02:43
S1
at least in this culture, generally, if things are set up, you say, it's working.
02:50
S1
It's it's great. It's really working. It's really turned out exactly the way it should and the pictures out here are fitting the pictures in my head. And then something happens that, quote, shouldn't have, and then you're upset.
03:09
S1
That just means the game is going on. It just means you're bowling. You've just knocked them over.
03:17
S1
The more of them you can knock over, the more points you get. So I suggest that in here, if you get upset a little bit, try and deepen the upset.
03:27
S1
Please. But that doesn't mean dramatize it.
03:35
S1
I'm not sufficiently new age to think that the dance that the bowler does or the cursing or kicking the ball return that the bowler does necessarily deeply influences the next role.
03:50
S1
By tomorrow night, you will leave here observing patterns that my suspicion is you have never seen before in other people.
04:03
S1
And by Tuesday, you will come back being able to see them also in yourself.
04:10
S1
Mhmm. So what if you never ever had to prepare again?
04:20
S1
What if you didn't have to prepare at all ever?
04:27
S1
If you just sat there and when it's if it's time, it's time, and if it's not time, it's not time, and you take care of it. The idea that this preparation somehow increases the likelihood of it turning out is such an incredible leap of faith.
04:50
S1
As a matter of fact, I think it often does the opposite.
04:55
S1
Think of when you were two years old, how prepared you were.
05:02
S1
You were prepared for anything that came along because you just did whatever you did when it came along. That was that. But then probably some fairly large people in your household taught you that that was not sufficient,
05:19
S1
and you had to be prepared in certain ways by a certain time.
05:26
S1
And you started to organize, and illusion was born.
05:35
S1
Because somewhere around the age of two, consciousness showed up in you. And at that point, you had the possibility of your parents saying yes and you looking at your parent and saying No. No.
05:53
S1
That's the birth of consciousness.
05:56
S2
In no words.
05:57
S1
And at that birth of consciousness, one of the two of you was going to be God. Guess
06:05
S1
which?
06:20
S1
And the best way to take care of you was to make sure that you had a limited range of behaviors available to you
06:31
S1
so that they could rope you into the little world that they lived in. So that if you were in a restaurant, the peas were for eating with a particular utensil rather than for flinging at that funny guy with the tie on at the next table that looked like he was missing the humor
06:53
S1
or sticking in your shirt
06:57
S1
or in your brother's shirt.
07:02
S1
So your parents had to teach you that there were just the right things and the wrong things, so they drew a line and they told you which was on which side. And chances are very good they threw in a curve too, which is that if you did things that were on the wrong side, you generally got more attention.
07:22
S1
Didn't you? Most of you get rewarded more with attention by acting up.
07:30
S1
It's a strange setup. So let's put something to bed right here which is you all were abused as children.
07:40
S1
That's it. We don't even need the story of the early rape or the anything like that. You were abused earlier than that and not intentionally, but you were abused. So you've all been abused. The question is now what?
08:00
S1
So I invite you throughout the course never to go back to the abuses and explain those to us because everybody was
08:09
S1
by tremendously well meaning people in the name of love. And
08:17
S1
so you said, okay, that must be love.
08:20
S1
Okay. If that's love,
08:25
S1
if them trying to slam down my world into something that's controllable by them is love, wonder what hate is.
08:37
S1
So I invite you throughout the course to cut the preparation
08:42
S1
or better yet, observe yourself if you're preparing. Uh-huh. I'm preparing. What's here?
08:52
S1
Not what's going to be here, but what's here.
08:59
S1
Because chances are pretty good if you're preparing, you don't see Trish over here because you're in here preparing.
09:09
S1
A survival technique is to be in here then out here then in here then out here then in here then out there very, rapidly.
09:22
S1
A non survival technique is to go in and start to get prepared for whatever is going on out here that you don't have any idea what it is because you're too busy preparing for it.
09:33
S1
It sounds funny partially because it's so gosh darn typical. I think she had something then we'll get to you if she okay.
09:42
S0
How do you how do you not prepare?
09:44
S1
Watch it.
09:50
S1
That's the best way I know. To try not to prepare is preparation again.
09:58
S1
And to observe it and observe it and observe it is not preparation. I'm getting ready. I'm getting ready for one thing that I think is gonna happen even though I don't have any idea what's gonna happen.
10:13
S1
And even if I get ready, then it what have I missed in the meantime? Getting ready takes you out of the moment. Taking you out of the moment has you get behind
10:28
S1
because whatever went on, the water that went by in the time that you were getting prepared influenced you too and you have to catch up with that.
10:40
S1
And people get further and further and further behind by preparing for what's gonna come.
10:49
S1
So it gets harder. And so you dam everything up, and you've got this huge buildup behind the dam. And you say, I wonder why life is so hard. Someday it won't be. It's gonna get easier.
11:08
S2
Here, Jerry is answering a question that a participant has about frustration.
11:17
S1
What what I'm saying is you can make up any kind of story you want.
11:22
S1
I'll
11:22
S0
start laughing here
11:23
S1
for a second. You're the author. You guys forgot you were the author, and you thought you had to write a particular book. Don't you? Yeah. You guys are the writers, and you think you're gonna find the right sentence that's already there.
11:47
S1
The right sentence that's already there should already been buried. It's rotting in the ground. Write the next one.
11:59
S1
Write it. You aren't gonna find it. You aren't gonna find it unless you do the strangest of things, which is run out ahead and put it there. And then run back and then, oh, look. And you wonder why you aren't really that excited after you've laid it out there in advance. And it has nothing to do with what's going on out here and you wonder why life seems a little hollow. It's because you laid it out there, and it has nothing, no coordination with what's here.
12:34
S1
So you got frustrated. Great.
12:40
S1
Anybody else get frustrated?
12:44
S1
Any of you get frustrated in your life? And what does frustrated mean?
12:54
S1
Now watch out because we use these words to describe absolutely huge things.
13:05
S1
Loss of control
13:09
S1
which presupposes that you are in control sometimes, and you think you are. So here's the big question. Do you would you rather be in control or out of control? Quick. In. In? For how many of you would you rather be in control? Okay.
13:31
S1
And when are you having more fun, when you're out or in?
13:35
S0
Out. Both.
13:36
S1
Okay. You're having more fun both?
13:40
S1
I suspect Different situations. Okay. We're gonna get under the situation dependent stuff here.
13:51
S1
Watch. My mind doesn't wanna go in control or out of control. It says, well, what's in the middle? Mhmm. Do you get that if you back off just a tiny bit from this, this is control too? I I want I I wanna keep it in the middle. What I'm saying is that it no. I'm gonna be out of control. I really am. I can do it. Here's my 11 step checklist for making sure that I'm out of control. If I skip any of them, I don't get to out of control. I can do it. I really can. With a little organization and a little planning, you'll be able to plan some spontaneity for next week.
14:36
S1
And the things that catch you are the strong upsets.
14:43
S1
The things that catch you is when you just get so angry you don't know which end you're on when you're livid or you just start crying and it's those you didn't plan. Here's a little different way to play. Try planning those. Tuesday from 04:30 to five, I'm gonna get livid. Absolutely livid. Now who should I blame it on? Because you can pick.
15:12
S1
What if you scheduled those in?
15:17
S1
Because all those are is little indications that you might not be in control anyway. Let's start controlling those.
15:27
S1
So get sad.
15:30
S0
Yeah. Get sad.
15:31
S1
Watch her.
15:34
S0
Why do I wanna get sad?
15:36
S1
Because I said so.
15:40
S1
That's a good parental answer, isn't it?
15:46
S0
You want me to Yeah.
15:47
S1
Get sad.
15:48
S0
Do a little drama here.
15:49
S1
Yeah. Without a name on it. Without what do you have to do? If you could just sit here and get sad like that and not even have to blame it on someone or not even have to do anything with it, and then you could in the next moment get excited and in the next moment get angry and in the next moment, wildly, passionately in love,
16:21
S1
then you're gonna start to convince me that you have a little bit of control.
16:26
S1
No. But if you need to do something before it, that's not control.
16:35
S1
So this is one of the ways you break apart the things you put together. See, she has to run a certain pattern to get sad. She can't just get sad first. Did you watch her get sad? No. Because she did it here. Earlier. It was about six or seven seconds, and then she got sad for just a moment and then went, wait a minute. I don't I don't think we wanna do this here. Partially because sad is a place that when she gets to, it's not that easy to get out of.
17:07
S1
That's not for all of you. It just happens to be for her. Remember, told you every fifteen to twenty seconds, you show me all of your problems and all of your solutions. If you're paying attention, you'll watch me reading them. I'm not suggesting that you go do this out in the world to people. Other than within yourself, do it. But here I pointed out, please don't use this stuff to go point it out to people. That it's just really not that necessary to offend them, and it's not that and that's not that useful. And in here, you're paying me to do it.
17:45
S1
Okay. So you got sad and then you got out, but she's not all the way out yet. You see it? There's about a 20% residue still sitting over here. Can you tell?
17:57
S0
Yes.
17:57
S1
Yeah. So now get rid of that 20% and get back here.
18:06
S1
Didn't work yet.
18:11
S1
So one of the offers of this course is this stuff will not be able to run unobserved in you. You will be able to observe it.
18:24
S1
You will start to find out who in the world you are.
18:33
S1
Because my suspicion is now it just runs anytime it runs. And then we could even graph it out on a calendar. And I could say, oh, Sharon's gonna get upset. Let's see. Here it comes. Here it comes. There she is.
18:51
S1
Or she's gonna get happy. And then she's gonna look around and she's gonna say this is what did it. When in fact, it's an underlying pattern that did it,
19:04
S1
and there's still 15 to 20% sitting there. Look around at them. Get your attention on them. That might make it a little easier, and it might not.
19:19
S1
Any other questions on anything? When we open it for questions, it's always fair to ask anything about anything.
19:34
S3
Is it a feeling that you have that allows you to know that she's back here with us? Or is it her eyes? Or what is it that allows you to know?
19:47
S1
If you work with computers, you may have a database on your computer, and that database contains data. It's probably why they call it that. Currently,
20:06
S1
most, if not all, of your data is based on personal experience, personal patterns.
20:18
S1
And how I used neuro linguistic programming was to take myself apart so that I don't access my personal database anymore, almost never. So what I do is I have no problem accessing her database or his database or your database or the universe's database which contains all of the data. And plain out, to answer it very simply, I don't get in the way of the data that just comes naturally to me.
20:54
S1
My own data is not in the way of the data that just comes.
21:00
S1
And one of the ways, and this is a tricky answer, but it'll make more sense as we go, and it's part of why we tape it,
21:08
S1
is that it's not by a pattern that I determine what she sorry for this. That I determine what she's doing.
21:17
S1
I sit here and she blatantly shows me if I'm not in the way of finding out. Now if I have any idea in advance what she's doing, forget it. If I have any agenda myself, it doesn't work. Almost anything will bar the door.
21:39
S1
One of the ways I put it in one of my books is that if you're speaking, the universe will never interrupt. It's much too polite. Wow. And it won't. It's still speaking. You just don't hear it.
21:54
S1
So as we go throughout this week, you'll be able to tell much more of that. It is not difficult if you're not in the way to sit here and see her pictures and hear her conversations. As a matter of fact, at a certain point, it's difficult to block them out so you can have a little bit of your own room. There are people in institutions right now who can't block them out, who just get everybody's data and they don't know which is theirs and they don't know which is somebody else's, and that's crazy. Literally. Literally. So
22:36
S1
it's a combination of pictures and sounds and feelings that shows up all at the same time, and there it is. And it's as obvious as here's a blue marker or more obvious than that. It's not something that needs to be teased out. If you're talking to someone who's a professional golfer, they will see things in a swing that you don't see,
23:06
S1
won't they? They do. My father was a musician. He played in the Chicago Symphony for years. He can hear things in the music that I can't pretend to hear in the music. What we're gonna do here is about people, and I'm an expert in seeing what's going on with the people, and you're gonna learn a lot about that in the next week. And what the heck? It's your species. You may as well learn it. If you're a good golfer, you may be pretty darn good out on the on the turf,
23:45
S1
but you're always a person while you're here. So I say that maybe could be the priority is to find out about people, and you will learn about people starting with who's sitting in your seat.
23:59
S1
And one of the main ways you'll find out about who's sitting in your seat is by who's sitting in the other seats here.
24:12
S1
In the world of illusion, nothing is as it seems.
24:19
S1
If the magician hands you a glass of water, I'm I'm not sure I would drink it
24:28
S1
because we aren't sure what it is, are we? Or what will happen with it? And what you do in general is you take whatever's going on in your own head is true.
24:44
S1
And the way that you do that is a very strange thing is that if you repeat something often enough to yourself in your own head, it must be true.
24:55
S1
Now the universe, of course, is known primarily by its diversity.
25:01
S1
So you're anti universe in that case because you're saying the same thing over and over again while the universe is saying everything. So you're building your own little universe. This is the universe of illusion. And then you somehow have to take this show on the road and deal with other human beings who have their own illusions. If fear is not an appropriate response to this, I don't know what is because they could damage your illusion. And the most important thing you have to never come in contact with is reality
25:38
S1
because reality will make it very obvious that your illusion is illusion. What you thought was true is not true.
25:53
S0
And here is yet another introduction to a recent illusion conclusion course.
25:58
S1
So good morning, everybody. Good morning. Good morning. Good morning.
26:08
S1
We arrived in Houston yesterday. Got to sit on the plane next to a woman who runs a
26:18
S1
neutering and sterilization clinic for animals in New York City. She's down here to a sterilization ball,
26:29
S1
as it were, with the Friend for Animals organization.
26:34
S1
Listen, I can't write it this funny. And Pat pointed out to me that what she is is she's in the business of fighting for animals' rights to be sterilized and neutered.
26:50
S1
I'm not sure if they get their permission or not. Sounds a little peculiar to me. That might not be right.
26:59
S1
So we've got you for Saturday and Sunday, and Tuesday and Friday and Saturday.
27:06
S1
Anxious mother asked the young boy. He got home from school and he had had his first day of sex education. She said, What did you do? And they said, don't worry. We just did the theory today. We
27:25
S1
won't just do the theory here. We'll do much more than the theory.
27:34
S2
Please refer to the empty full diagram in your booklet.
27:39
S1
There seem to be about three options here. One option is that this is you by the way. This is about the extent of my artistic ability. There you are. Each one of these is one of you. If you add a little something to who you think you are and add a little else to who you think you are and then add a little bit of something else to who you think you are and you keep building like that.
28:12
S1
Generally somewhere around age six, you are set enough that you get to suffer for the rest of your life with some exceptions
28:22
S1
and you don't need to be. So this is one model. This is an additive model where you get to add in stuff to who you think you are. There's another model which is not very popular, at least in The United States, which is that you start taking stuff away, and you take stuff away and you take stuff away and you start to kind of focus on still got a little stuff maybe left, but you start to focus on what's missing that you've taken away. This is a subtractive model in which fullness results.
29:04
S1
Here emptiness results.
29:08
S1
It seems to me that in the cycle of life somewhere around age six, we really start taking off adding this stuff and somewhere around whatever age, it can be very different for very different people, they start taking it away whether they want to or not. They've accomplished enough, they've got enough of a life that it starts falling apart whether they like it or not. And in this culture, we call this broken, it is in fact a natural progression in the development of a human being.